Lil sisster

I feel like dirt!

I know that this is not exactly the kind of statement that one expects from me but today I feel like dirt!

The reason for this very unusual state of emotion is because my hands are cut and I can do nothing to help.

This all may seem like irrelevant ramblings so I will explain my predicament.

I was informed yesterday that despite the best efforts of many specialist My little sister would have to undergo and operation to amputate part of her second toe.

The infection that was causing the bone in her toe to split could not be stopped and amputation was her only option.

With this knowledge and knowing that she would be starting varsity at the end of the month it was decided that the opp was to be done at the earliest possible date....."today".

I spoke to her yesterday and all she could say was that she was scared.

This is not something you hear out the mouth of a plot hardened Parker girl often but even so the point didn't hit home until a few minuets ago.

A few moments ago a glance at the time told me that Crystal (My sister "nice name I know") should be out of theatre by now and being the considerate person I am I dialed my moms number to hear how it went.... that's when it started....My timing was malignant; I had called only moments after Crystal had woken up and she was in pain.

Past my moms voice I could hear my little sister crying and so I cried.

I cried because in that moment the sister that teases me because I am shorter than she is, who is all of 18 years old and starts studying biocenetics in a few days, became a child again.

She was hurt and confused from anesthetic and I couldn't help.

I cried because I didn't take colleagues advice and take the day off and go to the hospital.

I cried because regardless of how much we fight and how terrible we can be to one another, shes My little sister and will always be my charge.

So here I sit counting the minutes to 16:30 so that I can go down to the hospital and make sure she gets to go home tonight even if it has to be under the threat of a doctors life......

Sorry you had to sit through that but this is me "dirt" love me or leave me.

Ill post some gruesome pics to make up for it

Peace out Peeps